Look forward to today. I slept well last night and I am ready for the world. No worries about the past, only think of what to do next.
What will the future bring? More technology? The end of civilization? The beginning of a new era? Will we live happily ever after? I sure like to find out. Eternity sure is a long time especially when we are at the end of it. LOL, it is a statement of paradox. There is no end to eternity honey.
Do you know that eternity is just a concept? Just like zero, it doesn't exist in reality. So I have 2 situations here that is very unlikely to happen, the afterlife and God.
I have to say that if I am logical about it, the future is bleak. Just like if we don't add zero to the numbers, we cannot have extremely small and extremely large numbers. So here I am a pseudo scientist and mathematician trying to converge everything and claimed I am the Creator. How vain all that baby...
brb... Tennis...
Tennis was not that great. Princess is still recovering from her Hong Kong trip.
Now back to our discussion. I can readily accept there is no God and the afterlife especially when I am being logical about it. However the belief is not intended for me when I am dead. It is meant for me to give meaning to my life while I am still alive.
Without *the[re is] faith [o]n God and the afterlife I am denying my mind to go beyond what is normal. I am denying it the ability to give meaning to the epiphanies like the wild flower phenomena in my yard, the manifestation of Al Araf 7:7 and the coherence of my numbers.
* Aah, finally, you accepted.
Am I playing to the tune of an unscientific mind? I don't think so because I am still benchmarking my observation based on evidence. Of course I have to spice it up with my own personal wisdom and instinct. That is the higher order thinking skill in action.
More than anything else, I choose to believe because I have a believing mind. It could be the way I was build up to be, but the gist of it is I am a believer.
It will be different if I am a skeptic. There is a downside to that. As a skeptic I will no longer enjoy fairy tales, science fiction and mystic revelation. I will no longer live in a magical world. No longer will I be a magician and sadly I will lose my magical way of seeing things.
What good is that? To have ears but cannot hear, to have eyes but cannot [feel] and honey, to have a heart but cannot love. I want all that. I want access to my faculty in full glory. I want to appreciate the heard and the unheard, the seen and the unseen, the known and the unknown.
I want to converse with Al Araf 7:7, I want to see beyond sight and I want to know the answer to the ultimate truth. Now all these are laid in front of me. Surely I will not deny the offerings of the Divine? Imagine Rumi without his poems, Van Gogh without his paintings and Sharudin without his blogs. What good is that? Without them you will never see what I see baby. I will forever be a delirious, lonely guy with a mental condition.
Alas, with this revelation of mine, I can live life without remorse or regret. I am soaring with angels. I am dancing to the tunes of the artists, poets and saints. I no longer just another drop in the ocean, I am an ocean in a drop - Rumi.
Baby, I hope I can convince you to look at the same direction together. Eternity means possibility. Possibility means it may of may not happen. If you deny possibility, you already have decided on the outcome. I have not decided. I still want to believe.
So baby, sweetie, my darling wife, the love of my life, savor the nectar as it drops from the petal of life, Be a lover of the ambiguity. Cherish the unknown. Celebrate the unexplained. Keep pushing to the brink. Only then you appreciate the true meaning of being alive.
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