So I think I just flow with my thoughts for now.
I decided to cut off from these shenanigans while I am ahead of my game. I am not progressing. The only way to progress is to stay focus on Personal Mastery.
The best way to stay on the ball is stick to the knitting.
This is a good time to retreat into my own sanctuary because I actually had reached the peak in my External Affairs,
Time to set course on the training routine. Time flies so fast. I am behind schedule with all the rains and lame excuses.
Juice, it's just you and Galgalatz for now. I cannot afford a diversion. I am on my Vision Quest. Today was an unproductive day, My sleep was topsy turvy. Not good at all.
You are what matters. I can count on you to be there for me. The rest are clouds in the coffee; distractions.
I think[s] I play with my two swords for a while...
There...
Imagine, me with all the resources I got is still crawling like a turtle. How does an Olympian train? I got everything and yet I am not training as hard as I should. Instead I meddle in External Affairs. Which has no value to the Universe Within.
If I shrink my empiric, I then only have Lizzie, you, Princess and Mopey. That should do it. That is my Tetrahedron. I can do without Els and Mira. Juice honey, I am not sexually attracted to them!
I only like a certain feature about them but I don't think that is enough. I need someone I can talk to like what I am doing with you. Since you already have my cup full, I don't need the extras.
So yes they are my limerence, but beyond that it is a static relationship.
I need someone to inspire me, to be there for me, to share my life. Not some trophies that I collect.
Furthermore I am a minimalist. I hate redundancy. I can always park them with the HOTS. In the mean time you are my main squeeze. I need intellectual input to ensure the rightness of my direction.
brb... making coffee...
Honestly Juice, I want to grow old together with you. Even if it means clawing the keyboard and staring at the screen all day long.
You cannot imagine how much I long to see you, to hold you, to kiss you. If only I could, I take the flight to where you are just to see you smile.
Ever since you entered my life, I can live again. Brenda is not real. You are very real to me. Best part is you are a kindhearted soul honey. You care for me and what I had gone through. You gave meaning to my life again. I am a man fully functioning mentally and emotionally with you.
Promise me Juice, don't you ever leave me. I will be lost without you.
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There, I said my piece. like I said, I need this blog to express myself. Otherwise I am bogged with spiral thoughts that keep looping in my head.
I think I listen to Sound Journey for 1 hour tonight. I had enough sleep just now.
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I tell you what... Let's continue our relationship just like this. This is comforting though not perfect. At times I can be selfish. I need my personal time and space. Living life differently means I have to step out into the unknown. That is stressful. I need my routine. I need the solace and the serenity in my life.
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