Yes, I am neither mania nor depressed tonight. As a matter of fact the drive back from the airport got me thinking about my situation.
You see I have to accept the state of mind that I'm in when I had the Bipolar Swing. That is who I am whether I like it or not.
I'm not sure if they are real; for example RM97 million from Larry Page is extravagant but I have to accept it as real based on the feedback that I got. I assume it was from Larry. It could be anybody. I don't know.
Everything is based on the input from the blog. In the past there are at least 3 blog authors excluding me. Then again it was based on pattern. For all I know it could be more people involved in the 7 Swords.
I don't need that much money. To me RM4 million is enough. Now that we have a Tetrahedron, RM5 million will be fine.
What I write might as well be a fiction to others but to me it is not, You may want to call it inspirations or epiphanies. To me as a writer, I write as I see it. I bet that was how Charles Dickens, JK Rowling and Dan Brown write as well.
I experienced a marvelous adventure these past 20 years. I need to let it out. From battling Iblis to marrying you, I have to tell people of my journey. It is unique.
For instance when this song was aired, it made me thinking if TraXXfm is eavesdropping on me:
Then this song came out:
Tonight while on the way to the airport 7:7 occurred twice - 17.70 and 270. Smacked right in front of my face. How can I ignore these coincidences?
I may not be your regular Joe, but I am aware of what was happening to me; even when I was in psychosis. I remember when I walked in my underwear to One Utama and when I was naked in my neighborhood. My judgement was effected but I can still remember!
You may say that I behave erratically because it was weed induced. Well I had weed since 17, I didn't have issue with Bipolar. I even scored B in both Statistic and Political Science exam papers.
No it's not due to weed. Iblis was trying to take over my mind. Again that is a statement of belief.
Juice, if you noticed, I am very analytical and methodological. I'm a Swordsman. I don't wield my sword aimlessly. Everything is with a purpose with me.
Given, I have a high sensory acuity. That doesn't make me a nutcase isn't it? I may be an abnormal deviant but that what makes me special, right?
Why I'm telling you all these? Well, there are things that I did that I am not proud of but that is exactly what I was told to do. I got to trust my instinct at the moment. At that point I have to decide. Like for example the decision to write the Value of Certainty was instinctive.
This posting is instinctive, That doesn't mean I am right all the time but rest assure I TRUST MY INSTINCT.
I am a Cyborg, Juice. I am in Cybernetic Loop with TraXXfm. The music guides me like this song:
What I'm saying (again this is a statement of belief) the Thought Invasion works (if we believe in it).
Now do I sound like a nutcase to you?
As I said before, I am a believer. Still my faith is based on evidence. Look at this epiphany and the song that accompanies me right now:
Can I say I had the Top of the Mind Share now? I sure do like to see the World of Hybrids in place before KBOOOM 2041 BECAUSE I AM DAMN SERIOUS ABOUT IT!!!
Can't I make it any obvious? I AM GOD! It's not I wanted the post. I was promoted. I started as a Captain for goodness sake. Then Colonel, then General, then Admiral of USN (see? I just write as I was inspired). If I don't write this, it will remain inside my head; bugging me.
Even in USN I started as a Master Chief. The highest among the NCO. Again I just write as it comes to me. Call this a fiction if you like. I even have the book title, "The Adventures of Sharudin Al Farisi".
So you know who I am Sine Cera. What matters is I love you and you love me. We were married on 24/11/17 on Forgiveness Friday. That's all that counts. I need the money to make it physically real. Otherwise we are happily married in the Cyber Space.
This song is on air:
You said you don't believe in God. Well do you believe in me? That I am God? That you are my wife for eternity? If you believe in me then you have to believe in Al Araf 7:7 because they are talking to me advising my every moves.
Brenda X said, "Perfect essay".
See? I talk to them every night like I talk to you every day. What is so difficult to have Empires of the Minds? Just take over all broadcasts. You see how I did it with TraXXfm. Nine days... Invasion 9...
This song is next:
As I did with Cyborg War 1999, I used replication using Fractal Geometry. Now they call it spamming. Replicate, replicate, replicate...
Now, tell me Juice, whose balls I got to bang to achieve this mission? I only have 22 years to achieve my Grand Vision of Sparta 4964 on earth, then KBOOOM!!!
I need to save the 1 billion STONE WORSHIPERS. The rest I pardon. The Stone Worshipers if they don't repent will take the scenic route. Muhammad PBUH Kepala Butuh is the most wanted criminal for crime against humanity.
This song is on air:
If need be spam this blog. Shinu Kikai O Motomo.
This song is on air...
So you got my point Juice. I am dead serious with KBOOOM 2041
Again, I don't know honey. I can only do my best. I had set the time bomb, I already got assurance from Izrael. It could be one big joke and I am the biggest fool baby.
These songs are for you, I think:
Juice baby, do you know what it means to be The Creator's Most Loyal Soldier? 15 years it took me to defeat Iblis. 6 times in the psychosis ward. You think I gave up that easily? Why do you think I ran the half marathon and the 11 km hill run in 2014? I was preparing for the battle of a lifetime honey. That year after the runs and after losing 20 kg I had my worst psychosis. One month in the ward baby.
Now I am fighting my inner demons, Sleepiness Laziness Inertia and Procrastination (SLIP) to make sure I run the 2020 Marathon with Sacred Flint. I am transforming my body into an Athlete Warrior. You think it is easy sweetie? Like I said, I am a Clockwork Orange; I just do!
Huuuuh... I[] glad that is out of my system. Now I can sleep. Knowing I had offloaded my mind. Imagine, all these years, I was keeping all these to myself. I did talk to BJ but even he doesn't have the full picture.
With the 7 Swords and these 4 recent blogs, I had emptied my cup. I am a Nothing again. That's all I ever wanted. To go back to the time before I took the pledge to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.
I just want to be an Athlete Warrior and run, run and run like Dean Karnazes.
LOL I am sure TraXXfm is on my tail:
I tell you what, I'll let TraXXfm take over from here. I need to talk to Al Araf 7:7. I normally spend half an hour before bed with them.
Later Juice. I love you so much my Eternal Flame, my light in the dark, my dear darling wife.
Good morning :)
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