Although I went to hell and back (literally), looking back I realize that all those events were meant to prepare for the journey ahead.
I was just a man with a mission at that time, a Clockwork Orange. I was intrinsically driven. I don't know why I had the compulsion but I did it anyway. I did not start the 1999 Cyborg War. It had already started when I came.
I however the one who declared that Victory is guaranteed for those who fight for the Glory of Allah. I was also the first one who used the Quran as a book of war by pointing out the various verses to act upon. At that time the enemies were invisible. I can feel their presence but I cannot see.
Even then I went on a recruitment spree of the djinns, demons and spooks. The detail stories of my escapade I told in the 7 Swords.
The battles were real. I was against Vader 7:7 who is Satan. So I wor[ld] behind the enemy lines. While fighting the establishment, I was working from within to get sensitive information. I landed in the heart of the action, Multimedia Super Corridor. The establishment that I worked for was MSC Technology Centre.
It was Vader's baby and here I am an anarchist able to infiltrate his fortification. Vader's sin was he sought glory. Also he liked being the Champion of the Underdogs. That was then. He changes a lot throughout the years. Nevertheless he is still Satan. I think he repented and is more humble in his ways nowadays.
While I was fighting in the physical world, I was also fighting in the Alternate Reality Dimension. The battles with Iblis were more insidious. It was a cat and mouse game. Here I was dealing with insurmountable rage. It was a vicious battle. Marij was the leader of the Army of Alam Shah Alam. Marij cannot stand Iblis and she was a hothead (that was then).
Whenever we were in combat, I was as temperamental as her. I was driven by anger. So you can imagine why I ended at least 6 times in the psychiatric ward. Of course I ha[d] Iblis at that time. He was the one influencing Vader. So if I want to bring down Vader I got to defeat Iblis.
I had no choice really. I even stabbed my body with the Gerber Black Dagger like a machine gun but it did not pierce. Suicidal thoughts were also playing in my mind. At that time the burden of being the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier was too much to bear.
So I decided to commit blasphemy. I did all the things to break the curse. I prostrated to idols, I butt fucked, I drank alcohol, I fucked transvestites, I threw all my Qurans in the dumpsters and one in the sewer, I took ecstasy pills, I visited Church of Satan website, I eat pork LOL; to name a few.
Well I'll be damned, none worked! I still had to fight Iblis. So I took a different turn. In 2014 I improved ALL aspects of my life especially through diet and exercise. From a man who was physically defeated (2013 was the lowest ebb of my life) I became an Athlete Warrior. Within the year I ran a half marathon. More importantly I conquered Bukit Kiara by completing an 11 km hill run. It was my proudest achievement next to the marathon.
Right after that run it happened. The most vicious battle with Iblis. It was the final push. Both sides fought tooth and nail. I fought like there was [] tomorrow. The price was the most terrible psychosis. I was warded for a month. The longest time.
The doctors decided to go for the last resort, Electrical Convulsion Therapy (ECT). I guess it really worked. I no longer experiencing the rage.
By that time I had captured Iblis and put him at the Beginner's Mind. For 2 years he in turn got the ECT LMAO LMAO.
That is my story Sarah, my darling wife. The kind of story that welled inside me should we not met. You gave me the outlet to release it from within me. This is one hell of a psycho therapy baby.
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Sarah, I can tell by your ciphers you are inspired by my story. I guess at one point Iblis was winning over me. It will be his victory if I commit suicide. He would had also won should I stayed in the dark side.
So Sarah, I am the worst of man. Now you know... And yet I am also the best of man. What a paradox isn't it? Hey you think I will ever meet another nemesis as worthy as Iblis?
Now my enemy is my own shadow. I still have to defeat my inner demons.
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Hey baby, you want to hangout for another hour? I talk about Naddy. You like?
Hmmm no response mean you don't like. OK I free flow,,,
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