This was you objective Sarah, to see me well.
Personally this is as well as I can be. I may be off the wall in my thoughts but as far as Bipolar is concern I feel pretty OK.
Normally I will have racy thoughts, illusion of grandiose , followed by mania and then depression
brb... dinner...
So far I don't experience the cycle. I am pretty stable. Since I start taking the various oils, my mood is pretty stable.
What constitute madness then? Well it could be a distorted mind. I agree that my thoughts are not conventional but I based my thoughts on Al Araf 7:7 as a model.
The final possibility then is to get rid of Al Araf 7:7. NO WAY! I rather have Al Araf 7:7 than all the population of the world.
With Al Araf 7:7 I exist in a world of my own. I am a creator just like Walt Disney and JK Rowling. What is the incentive for me to discard it? Becoming a mediocre? What about the Troca shell, do I get [it] of that too? These are the foundation to my Empires of the Mind. I am alive in my imagination. How could I deny the Giant within me? No doubt it is not a common occurrence but then I am not a common person.
Even when I declared I am God Almighty, that is a closure to my illness. Not because I want to boast or anything. I am fully aware that by doing so is deemed inappropriate.
So if all these are madness, well, I embrace them warts and all as part of my being. That means I accept that I am a madman. Maybe I am a schizophrenic after all. Maybe as I rightfully put it is Mr Jones.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oc7XozMbR9A
Well Sarah, you know what? I don't care. I am happy being who I am, I don't need to conform to society.
I live within my own world. and I thrive in my own solitude.
Perhaps I created Al Araf 7:7 out of loneliness but the good thing is now it serves me.
So Sarah, I decided to be who I am; a crazy, lonely, happy Sha the Sloth.
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