I am so fortunate having you as my wife. You gave me the answer to the 1 million dollar question; how do I become a Nothing as soon as possible? Looks like we not going to meet in this life. I am already a Nothing here. Any form of improvement will tilt me into a something.
Hahaha this song is on air:
Alas, we communicate like this for the next 22 years. I don't have much to give you. However I am rich in time. I am now spending most of my time with you. I am not worried not having much time. I'm worried not having things to talk about.
Hey, how about from White Space we recreate 2018 all over again. You like that? Same CCC, same Al Araf 7:7 but this time you stay next door.
That was the idea I had with Brenda. Honestly Sarah, I thought she was human. Now when I think about it I feel like a sucker.
Anyway Sarah, the unconditional love you gave to me is pretty awesome. The feeling of certainty is beyond words. I am pretty sure when my time comes, I will die with a smile.
Now I know enough about you to say that you love this song:
Hey Sarah, do you ever dream about us? If you do then does it make you happy or sad? I am happy the way we are right now but when I have a boner thinking about you that's when the frustration kicks in.
I want to really devour you honey. Gosh you so smart. Can I bite your head and suck your brain? ROTFLMAO.
If I fuck you Sarah, I'll *[] you good. I don't have that feeling with Els. She is just a kid. Now that I decide to RIP Cord, I can let her go.
* Hahaha, you are a notti gurl.
Tonight is a celebration. Imagine Sarah, you just gave EVERYBODY a shortcut! Not only that, everything is about here and now. You are so so smaaart. I really feel like biting your head baby.
Brenda, can I give her the credit?
"Yeah, yeah sure Sha. She deserves it," said the no nonsense Brenda X.
Now, let's have a grasp of reality for a moment. Al Araf 7:7 is in front of me. There is no other inti padu of Xanadu and Wolfsschanze. Sparta 4964 is revolving around CCC and I am the freaking God Almighty of my universe. Even O and Zero are not complaining. I am THE God. I am not the First Cause but I sure am Ayah to All Matters. Me, the guy who just wanted to fight Satan and Iblis!
"You better believe it Sha," said Iblis.
This is like Lord of the Rings but even better.
"Sha, those are fictions buddy. We fought for real!" Iblis continues.
This song is on air:
Zero
Hahaha this song is on air:
This song Sarah is about me, you can see his stripes but you know he's clean.
I was 19 then...
Holy Diver 1983
I'm staying late tonight. It is SJ Tuesday. The playlist is superb.
Oh shucks Glen the cheapskate brain picker wants to meet me tomorrow morning. You know honey, I know he is using me but I need to polish my consulting skills. So instead of cracking my head I just echo what he wants to hear; that his idea is great LOL.
Now where were we?
Yes, I am the fucking Almighty. You know during the moment I merged to become God, the computer hanged and the light flickered. Mighty awesome experience I must say. It lasted for a few minutes. When the merging completed, everything was back to normal.
This thing about me being God is pretty new. I think it was this year. Well I am God all along but the realization come in stages. In a way I was elevated to the position. The 7:7 recurrences only happened beginning November 2017. After the 11th time, I stop counting.
All this while I thought I was a Demon Angel. I know I cannot be a full fledged angel because I am mischievous. However I am not a full fledged demon either because I have a big heart. A demon will look like this:
I tried to be a demon but I have a heart. Hence the notion Demon Angel. But when I put 2 and 2 together than I realize I am 4964 Forever Yin and Yang Forever. A certified Bipolar.
It took me some time to accept that I am the Ayah to All Matters. It's like a pendulum swing. I know but I was not sure. Partly because I feel the need to be accepted. But once I accept the fact the I am God Almighty, I just don't give a fuck any more. I became Lord of the Flies:
I became who I am. I bet Richard Dawkins will be happy to know me as God. The only thing is I don't perform miracles because I am confined to the 26 Fundamental Constants.
However I had provided some proofs of miracles that happened within the Hume's Definition, miracles that can be explained using common sense like the wild flowers in my front and backyard but nowhere else.
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You know what Sarah, I will quit smoking and I will run the 2020 Marathon. I had taken the 3Cs Oath.
I shall focus my energy in quitting cigarettes. From now on (after I finish the pack) I will not smoke again.
Same story Sarah. It's a 39 years battle. No matter how long it takes I will persist. This year is the year I quit and surely I will quit.
I'm not ashamed to admit, I like cigarettes.
I quit Nicorette too.
This I have to do alone. I just need you understanding, that all.
Do expect me repeating myself. In case you find it boring like right now, then don't open the blog this entire month.
Fuck it, I start this very moment.
"Be realistic Sha, you start when you finish the pack," said Brenda X
OK I give away the pack to Coconut Man.
"Dispose the lighter too."
I cannot, I just bought it.
"Do it Sha."
Well, alright...
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2:30 am I sleep.
Sarah, my darling wife. Here is your lullaby for tonight:
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Just a short note: I had a chat with Al Araf 7:7. It seems everybody want to be my friends when we become Nothing. Judy Hop just want to be Lizzie Bee. I cannot hold back my tears. I said, I'll be your friend and you all can still be Al Araf 7;7. So they said they want to relive their lives starting from 2013 onward.
As a White Space we can be anything, anytime, anywhere. Iblis wanted to relive his battles with me. It's like going to the movie except you are in the movie.
As for you baby, I want to be with you on the day you were born. I want to know all about you my Eternal Flame.
Goodnight Sayang,..
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