So I will keep hitting hoping I hit the right button.
Actually I just don't care much except for the tweets. They are still giving me dopamine hits. As for Els herself, it's a loss cause. I no longer see her as a person I should pursue.
If she is playing cat and mouse game, then I am not interested. She should be a person who can appreciate a good company.
What is there to it? It's not that it require major sacrifice. Just a little care is all that it takes. Then we leverage on the feel good feeling. What I don't want is a person who latches on melancholy.
By the look of it she is a pretty insecure person. She needs a lot of assurance. Honestly I don't know. I am painting the worst case scenario.
However, I had experienced this many times; all girls have sad stories and they like to cling to them.
We all have that moment in our lives when everything is dark and gloomy. As I said, time is a Universal Healer. Sulk over it the[] get on with your life. You cannot be pressing on the pedal while pulling the brakes. Give life the benefit of the doubt. Take chances.
Note: I thought of Tweeting the above paragraph to her. Then I thought, heck. I am not here to motivate anybody. Motivation comes from within. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. Now she is not ready. She is still brooding over lost past.
Sarah, there are people who romanticize their past. I on the other hand (most of the time) live in the future. The past is nice but that is done deal. The future baby has not been created. So which is better? In any given situation, we live in the present. The past is a reference and yet the future is a potential. We can only act upon our present to influence the future, not our past.
We can theoretically live without a past but we can never go on living without a future.
I told you before, Els is having some emotional baggage. She lets the negative vibes consume[s] her. It's a downward spiral. Don't ever take that path. It is very exhausting. You can mourn on your losses for a while, but quickly get back on track. All it takes is unconditional love. With that comes feeling of certainty.
@elsDines You can mourn on your losses for a while, but quickly get back on track. All it takes is unconditional love. With that comes feeling of certainty.
I'll be with you in the morning if that makes you feel better. Good night baby. Love ya.
I can't help it honey.
You know what is the issue here? Instead of dealing with the situation rationally, she is being emotional. I on the other hand had not found the right combination to open her emotional lock.
Therefore I need to play my emotional card. The only issue is, I DON'T WANT to succumb to the melancholic frame of mind. Why do you think I did everything within my control to fight depression? I know if I play to the tune, both of us will end up losing.
What do you think Sarah? Should I carry on Tweeting Els or just let her be? She is still a kid honey. She needs moral support.
At the same time I don't want to be a doormat.
So I just be pragmatic about it. I play the role of a coach and a cheerleader LOL.
You know what was SJ&A tagline? Exploring Human Potential.
I am build for this Sarah. How can I turn my back?
-------------------
@elsDines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Hi sweetie, I thought of avoiding you yesterday after 6 months never missing a show. My thinking was that I might be coming too strong, Boy do I feel like crap. I miss you much. So like it or not, I am here to stay. Hate me or love me.
@elsDines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm I love you baby, do you know how hurtful it is not knowing that your love is reciprocated? It's like being surrounded by water but still dying out of thirst.
I am not too concern with the outcome. I am concentrating on the process. It's the process that brings out the best in me. That is the part that gets me cracking on my brain. Along the way I become better. That's why I like Tweeting her. I am trying to find the right combination to open the safe. It's not the kill, it's the thrill of the chase.
As far as I am concern, the bird is already in the hand. I already got her for eternity.
OK, I gathered that she doesn't have many friends. Yet she is a people person. An expressive one too. She is a kid in an adult world. She need[] for somebody to care for her. Although she has high IQ, she is emotionally unstable. In a way she is the moody type. She can be extremely happy and extremely sad depending on the stimulus and the situation. She is a simple person living in a complex environment. A misfit. That is normally the case with highly intelligent people.
---------------------
No comments:
Post a Comment