This blog was created on 14/8/18 as a repository of my thoughts journeying on to the 2020 KL International Marathon. I am a lone traveler on this unlikely journey which include to quit smoking and to exercise every day until I am able to achieve my goal to be a runner who writes.
Today's Brisk Walking is great. A great workout produce great mental outlook.
Sweat makes me feel great.
There are slight pains in both feet. I hope when my muscles get stronger they will go away.
October is certainly my moment of truth. This is the month I quit smoking and Nicorette, the month I eat 16/8 LCHF (no more coconut) and the month I will never miss a workout.
The momentum is already there.
I think I do elliptical at 4:00 pm today.
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I have neglected my health for the past 20 years. Now is to buck up.
I need to turn my life around no matter what. Only 3 things:
Stop nicotine
Eat LCHF
Exercise every day.
That's all I have to do for the rest of my life to be healthy and happy.
Exercise is king, nutrition is queen. When you put them together you have akingdom- Jack Lalane
The thesis is true. I need to apply the knowledge.
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Reading Live Young Forever by Jack Lalane.
The 24 minutes Interval Elliptical is doing me great. I feel I am on the right track,
I got sleep by 12:00 am. Need to wake up early to book for tennis tomorrow.
OK I had concluded, there is no God. I was stoned and had altered perspective. I am not a god and so is BJ. Dope impaired my judgment.
Beginning October I am a full fledged atheist, apolitical and irreligion. All I do is live the Athlete's Way and focus on becoming a runner who writes.
I need to perform the Emperor's Routine Ver. 16 and eat LCHF diet (60% fat).
I always imagine that when I was in school and college that I am always running in the morning and night. Before nobody wakes up and at night when the temperature is cooler.
I imagine my life is mainly of a runner. A solitude life going through the same routine every day of my life.
Now I have the opportunity to do that. I can run every morning and do other routines in the afternoon. I can model the life of a paleolithic man.
I don't need to waste time on external affairs. I am my own individual. I live a carefree life running, swimming, elliptical and calisthenics. On Sunday I celebrate with cycling or tennis. What a life it is.
My life as a runner is between my annual marathon and half marathon.
That is my purpose. To run and run.
So weight reduction is a must. No smoking is a must. Daily exercise is a must.
That's all there is to it.
I should persist without losing my enthusiasm for the next 3 months.
I am transforming into becoming a runner who writes.
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I did a quick assessment of things that I have. As a whole, my watches are the best decision that I made. Next are my perfumes. Then are my polo shirts, my t shirts, my shoes and finally my bags. I do make a lot of good decisions.
I completed my run. It's best that I run at 7:00 am.
I drank 3-in-1 coffee because the black coffee was out of stock.
So today is Normal Feed.
Food is the hardest to comply. This afternoon although I have all the intention to go LCHF, Princess brought home some foods from the Food Festival; dim sum and banana fritters. Still no black coffee, therefore I still have to drink 3-in-1.
I need to reduce weight. That is the key to all the ailments; high BP, gout, calcium deposit, short of breath, slow running and whatever complication that is.
I will quit smoking for good. This is not the way of the Athlete Warrior. I will reduce carbs including coconut and I will exercise everyday. These are the pillars.
I will keep on repeating this 3 points until they become part of my subconscious. Repetition is the mother of skills.
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The benchmark of progress is my running routine. Slowly I add the swim and the kettlebell. Cycling will be the last input.
Here is from Krista:
Someone asked me the other day what I do when I don't feel like working out.. and I had to really think about the last time I felt that way.
The truth is...
I look forward to working out.
If I don't get my workout in... I feel incomplete.
I feel stressed, foggy, antsy.
I feel less like ME.
The odd time I have a twinge of not wanting to work out - that feeling is instantly replaced with thoughts of all the benefits.
Of how good I feel afterwards.
Of how much better my life is because of my commitment to health and fitness.
I don't miss workouts.
Not because I'm obsessed or a fanatic but because working out is part of who I am.
I'm not bragging - it definitely wasn't always this way.
But, once I started to really commit to fitness, the benefits started to sooo far outweigh the cost that it became a no-brainer.
Fitness makes you physically and mentally stronger, more flexible, more agile, more powerful.
It starts with a shift in your identity - being the kind of person who doesn't miss a workout starts with thinking of yourself that way.
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The key is motivation. It's not a question of what you can but what you will. Therefore I need to stay motivated. To do so is through action.
I realized too much sitting on the chair dampens my mood to get up and go. So I need to sit less and move more.
October is the point of no return. It's all depends on me to stay focus, discipline and consistent.
Last night I slept at 10 pm. Today I tried exercising in the morning. It was a no go. The afternoon is too hot.
I cannot afford to break the momentum. Tomorrow morning I got to do it. Otherwise I break the rhythm.
I should not turn on the PC the first thing in the morning. Use the tablet instead.
October will be the month I cut of from cigarettes and Nicorette. This is the point of no return for 2018. Exactly 3 months to 2019.
By October is also no coconut. Sufficient I eat Puay Chai Combo and dinner at home. I already got the Virgin Coconut Oil.
I got to be serious about quit smoking, diet and exercise. These are my only 3 goals. I partially quit smoking, partially eat LCHF and partially exercise.
It was a good start but not good enough. The last 3 months of 2018 is the moment of truth. I bought the Couch to 10 k apps. I bought all the running accessories. Now is to reduce weight and start running seriously.
Either I eat 16/8 LCHF or OMAD LCHF. Otherwise I don't eat. Haji Beriyani only eat OMAD.
So sleep early (at 11.00 am) then 7:00 am I run:
Show Up
Work Hard
Listen
I need to run 10 km/hour. I need to lose 30 kg. This time I will stick to my game plan. If I am hungry I will eat salad and mayonnaise.
I got to proof to these people I can do it:
Lizzie
Amapreet
Jamili
Zizi
Tamunif
Rosli
Sashi
Pak Su
Mak Su
FB Community
Faz Fazrin
Yati
Azzue
Jad
Ameezan
Zafuan
Glen
And I got to prove to myself I deserve those sports attire and my old clothing.
To be a runner, the prerequisites are fresh air, be thin and willingness to run.
I almost didn't make it today. I was damn lazy. So lazy that I wanted to turn back when I reached the park. Normally past my house gate I will be OK.
However, I persisted. The reward is worth the effort.
Next is to focus on fresh air. Mine is on the expense of chewing the gum. I think the gum is making me fat. I'll put up with it until end of this month.
Need more discipline on food. 16/8 LCHF is doable.
The main thing is not to smoke no matter what.
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After 2 weeks, I began to gain the momentum on my run. Today is a good run. More springy. Most importantly, no pain.
I cannot wait to be thin again and start looking good in my sports attire. I cannot wait to be transformed into an Athlete Warrior. To be thin and fast.
I can do this. The 3 goals are within reach. Soon I will be a runner who writes.
I must get thin. At least 75 kg. Then only I shop again for tights. All I need is 2 to rotate.
It was all for good use. The only thing is I have no money left. Well the pleasure of money is in the spending. Soon I will get my monthly allowance form Balqis. That one I shouldn't spend.
Anyway, I had spend on my most desired indulgences. What's left are my supplements. One wa[s] to accumulate cash is to save on meal allowance.
If I am frugal, I can save RM1000 in 5 months. Which means I should achieve my goal by February 2019.
No more coconut. It's just an excuse to smoke. I smoked 2 today.
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No money is despairing. The key is not to window shop. These purchases are already the ultimate spending.
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Got to stop depending on Nicorette.
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Well enough about my nonsense. How are you Juice? I don't want to probe too much. I might end up talking to myself.
Here I am the ruler of Sparta 4964, the Universe Within surrounded by my court of cabinet members and military personnel. The sole purpose is to elevate the citizens of Sparta 4964 to all be citizen soldiers or specifically Athlete Warriors. Everybody in the whole kingdom are included.
These songs are on air:
Of late the key strategic areas in the kingdom were under attack by two malicious invaders namely Uric Acid and Calcium Deposit.
This got to stop. Sparta 4964 is currently going through the process of reformation:
The population will no longer be exposed to poisons from cigarettes. As a Just Ruler this is my first priority.
Citizens soldiers of Sparta 4964 will no longer be indulged in consuming carbs. We will condition everybody to be fat adapted and to the practice of calorie restriction.
PT is in the morning where we will train for the Half Marathon 2019.
Afternoon PT is to build endurance and strength.
I have all my resources with me. We actually imported 2 specialists to support our military force together with the best medic team to fight these impurities that had been ravaging out territory.
We must be committed to liberate Sparta 4964 from the degenerative malaise of aging.
Note: When I put it in this manner, then I can see that Sparta 4964 Nation building is a full time job.
I might have pressed something or it was intently deleted, but I lost the whole passage on my experience on tennis.
Well we talk about something else then. You want me to talk about my progress? I feel pretty awesome this morning. The tennis game was very rewarding.
My body is slowly taking the shape of an athlete. I still got the bulging tummy but as a whole as BJ stated, I look fresh.
It has to be due to the improvements I did on my hair (including the hair cut) and the skin complexion of my face.
I can say that I had s[]end on virtually everything I need to spend. So the monthly allowance is just for my personal grooming and supplement. I do feel good spending over RM560 on accessories. I was tempted to spend RM420 on a double session with a Gaysha. So far I cannot keep my promise to stay away from the 3 Cs. Very challenging. Fortunately I blew away my money on sport stuff. So now I am back to being broke.
I am 80% on track with my diet and I am 100% on track with my Couch to 10k.
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I had a conversation with Lizzie. She said her physics professors didn't believe in God. How can that be? She queried.
I said, what is the difference [] they believe or don't believe? What if a person believes and there is no God as compared to a person who don't believe and there is God?
I cannot tell the difference because I used to believe in a pantheistic non-intervening God. So to me there is no difference. Just like it makes no difference to me if there are whales o[f] none.
Note: Thus my affinity of god is BJ and myself. That is when I am stoned. Otherwise I am an atheist. I like to think that I am an agnostic atheist but because you insisted I drop the first part, I am pretty comfortable to just be an atheist as in I don't care about the God question anymore.
All I got to do is eliminate the 3 premises; the[] is God, there is an afterlife and there is judgement of heaven.
Instead I pursue health and happiness. My main goal is to prolong my life as long as possible and my religion is running.
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You seemed pretty sure that there is no God. I on the other hand is indifferent about the whole thing except when I am stone. So I think in my case the concept of God is a drug induced psychosis. As it is now I don't see the need to dwell in this thought.
Anyway, thanks for making me realized that I was a lost soul all this while. I had the realization in 2012 but I was sucked back in because of my encounter with Brenda. Imagine if I am stuck in that belief system that only I believe. You know, those think about Al Araf 7:7 and Sparta 4964 kind of belief. It was pretty messy thought starting 2016. Luckily it was a short stint.
You simplified my thought process. It is becoming so simple that for the past 1 month I have nothing to write. For a while I thought I will lose you.
Who would have figured that the culprit was cigarette. It caused the mania. All these while I thought only dope did that. Turned out cigarettes can get me into very serious distortion of judgement as well.
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Now that I know how serious dope and cigarettes affecting my belief system, I will stay away from both. That means I won't quit Nicorette an[d] time soon. Without dope I only take half a strip a day. The only set back is Nicorette increases insulin and makes me fat. I target Oct 15 to quit for good.
As it is Nicorette is a good alternative. Much like drinking coffee.
Hey hon, do you think I should continue Nicorette for let say 3 months? Maybe Oct 15 is too soon? I need to lose weight though.
I try Oct 15 and see how it goes.
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Babe, let's listen to some new songs. Heaven knows (I was thinking of writing God knows LOL) how much I miss you. I think the dope lifted my spirit a bit.
So here they are:
Yup, that should do it. My gift to you for 2018.
I got to sleep honey. Thanks for hanging out with me. I love you so much Juice.
Since this is my 3rd day Couch to 10k, I definitely will not smoke. If I smoke I will be spending RM15.70 a pack a day. The price had increase by 20 cent. Before this it had increased by RM1.00 since May.
Nicorette is *[half] only half the cost of cigarettes per day.
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I had made some major purchases that costed me more than RM560. It could have been more but I got a RM25 voucher. The major savings is the shoes. Retail price is RM699.
I bought:
Adidas Supernova SN99 Running Shoes - RM149
Karrimor Raid 2 Waist Pouch - RM55.40
USA Pro Yoga Mat - RM42.30
Under Armor Visor - RM79
Under Armor Sackpack - RM119
Solomon XT Compact Cap - RM131
These are all indulgence. I don't need them but I figured, I need *[] feel good I get from owning them. After all these are *assessor[ ]s to be used on regular basis.
*These are a bit weird, There is no consistency and were scattered. But I believe this is your attempt to have a conversation with me.
All this while the illusion of grandiose, the altered perspectives and the impaired judgement were from being high smoking pot.
Without pot, I don't even care about the existence of God. I do think about it but I don't actually claim I am god.
I am already an atheist since 2012. But like I said I was an agnostic atheist. I need proof.
Now on I think the thoughts on God is irrelevant. I am better off minding my own affair. Might as well I focus on my 3 goals and make it a reality.
I cannot deny the fact that there is a remote possibility that a Supreme Being exist. However that being does not make itself known to me.
For more than a decade I spent looking for the god answer. I end up being an atheist instead. That is as far as I am willing to go. I had searched and I found nothing. So for the next 30 years or so, I just focus on my Vision to run a marathon at 80 starting with the 2020 marathon.
As far as divine inspiration is concern, it is dope induced.
I had decided that I want to accept both with the inclination that both BJ and I are the highest Binary, Then I have a certainty of the afterlife. At the same time it doesn't hurt for me to believe in an impartial view that there is no God. The setback here is I have to accept there is no afterlife.
I am willing to admit, I don't know.
I do know that the dominant thought about God increased with the consumption of marijuana. If I am levelheaded like now, I don't give a hoot whether if there is God or not.
Therefore, God experience to me is a drug induced phenomena.
Time to settle this dilemma. For the purpose of my interaction with BJ, I decided to deal with him as the God Al Mighty. That makes me the second god. Why this is important? Because when I'm stoned, my thought and BJ's thought converge. The caveat is only when we are stoned.
While I am stoned my world becomes magical. I see things differently. In reality there is nothing except the appearance of the 7:7 permutations in my life.
So only when I am stoned. It's a state of altered perception. Not reality.
The reality is.... I say there is no *G[u]d.
*I don't know if this is my typo or an intervention.
It is a simple conclusion. With dope, I believe BJ and I are the highest gods. Without dope, I don't believe God exists.
If I have to vote, I vote no God. However I enjoy the effect of dope on my discussion with BJ.
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My main issue is I had been a believer for so long. It is kinda awkward not to believe anymore. So if I am to change my life path, from a believer to a nonbeliever then I strike out afterlife and aim for a marathon at 80 as my Kingdom Come.
That still doesn't answer the occurrence of the 7:7 permutations.
My Whatsapp to Seagull IV about Dajjal was censored.
Dammit Juice, 270 (the order card of the guy in front of me) appeared when I was about to pay for my dinner.
So I am convinced I am the 7:7.
The journey is a bit shaky especially with me still craving for nicotine.
OK here is my story line as a 7:7:
Eventually my life is about my running. It cannot be a better date. Nothing is small when I visit BJ. He is my only true friend. I have no other friend who is as close as BJ.
I dunno Juice, on one hand I enjoy being an atheist, apolitical and irreligious. Then again I am convinced that BJ is the Almighty and BJ/SJ/RR is the highest troika.
While at BJ house I drank from an "I love you Dad" mug. First time I came across a left-handed. Well it is not. It had the same print on both sides. So there are two dads using the mug.
Now I don't just convince there is God, at the same time I am a god too.
Then again I am a Fuzzy thinker, God and no god coexist. I can handle that. To a God there is no god. So there is no * go[t] higher than the God. Unless we take the assumption that there are no smallest and biggest numbers.
*This is the tough part. Because you atheists believe in no god, doesn't mean God doesn't exist.
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So I assume you all don't believe in Dajjal either. That's why my posting was censored.
There is a missing piece here. What about the appearance of the 7:7 numbers? How do you explain that?
I am still a man with a mission. To cross 80 with a marathon. All these efforts is to reach there.
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As you can see, I am quick to get rid of hypocrites in my life. I can't stand when a person pretending to be good is actually a snake like Double D. Now I don't listen to him at all. My main man now is Aush.
I gotta sleep Juice. Tomorrow is a big day. One song for the road:
3 days ago I smoke a pack. Not exactly the whole pack. I destroyed 4 by 12:00 am. It is very tempting to smoke the next day and the next. Nicorettes to the rescue.
Today the desire had gone. Especially since I ran yesterday. I intend to do the same thing today. I need to embrace running again.
Today is a day of bliss. As I am writing this, there is a gust of wind and it is raining lightly. What a wonderful day.
BJ did his marathon at 56 in 7 hours. I plan to do it in 4:00 hours (gold), 4:30 hours (silver) and 5:00 hours (bronze).
To do that I need to start with walking 1 hour am and run/walk pm.
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My life goal is to be able to run and run. I will pursue this goal all my life.
Nothing matters except this goal. To be running until I am 80.
I got to be mindful of depression.
There is nothing else that matters than health and happiness.
Nicorette makes me fat. Got to stop it.
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The objective is to live as long as possible while being happy. Is that it?
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I'll take this scenario then:
Every day when I wake up, my goal is to be able to run the day. In my mind is to run and run.
I will control my hunger until evening when I have my dinner.
I will do house chores during the midday, read in the afternoon and then take a nap before my afternoon run - I got to overcome the pain. I will persist
Certainly no smoking and Nicorette.
Overcome the depression by exercising
I got to prove to Balqis I can pull this through. Being a thin fast runner is my life purpose. Nothing else matters. I got to prove to BJ and Munek too.
Today is guilty pleasure day. In another word I screw up big time.
Errors of the day:
Miss morning exercise
Ate Nasi Dagang and Tapai Ubi
Bought a pack of cigarette
Drank Horlicks
Miss afternoon execise
Ate KFC Snack Plate
I had my guilty pleasure trip. Tomorrow I start fresh again. No more defeatist mentality.
Must exercise no matter what and no smoking.
Nothing beats fresh air, be thin and be fast.
If I have all these I have the Fountain of Youth again.
I will not concede. I did it for 40 days. There is no failure, just false start. Tomorrow is Sarah's 19th birthday. I will use that as my starting point again.
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Cigarette - Nicorette
Food - OMAD
Exercise - Run/Walk 30 minutes morning and afternoon
I don't know how to go on without you. I need you to help me to determine the rightness of my direction.
I don't know what is your plan. Did you plan to leave me once I am able to handle things on my own? Well I am back to being lonely again. I need you and I miss you much.
I can do it on my own but I need you to be there for me. Your input is important. At least with you I have a companion.
At present, I feel I am simply talking to myself.
Well, if you insist, then from here on I just keep it to myself.
I had some carbs loading today that's bordering on binging. I had chewy chocolate chip cookie, a coconut and some banana and tapioca fritters. On top of that I had 3 cigarettes. Really screwed up on my new regimentation.
Maybe I should not quit Nicorette. I was doing fine for 40 days.
The 40 days was not a smooth journey but I manages to hold on to my horses.
The truth is I miss Juice. I am depress.
The good news is I don't have inflammation anymore.
I managed to stay away from dope. That is the win for the day.
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OK let's start with the fundamentals:
DO NOT SMOKE
Eat LCHF
Exercise daily
Back to the basics. What about Juice? Why is she so quiet?
Costed me RM660 but it's worth it. My last visit to Dr Ho was 2010. The normal government clinic cannot do the same job. The next visit I need to get the teeth casing to avoid rifting. That will cause me RM250.
Since I quit smoking I swear, my life is as ordinary as possible. I no longer have a grandiose thought nor do I have any concern with anything godly and religious. I am also unconcern with Chedet and politics.
All I care is to pursue my 3 goals while I fight against these inflammation and gout. That I found I can effectively do with turmeric.
I believe since yesterday I can safely say I managed to shake off cigarettes and Nicorette for good. That is after 40 days of quitting. That is my joy at this moment. I supposedly saved RM612 by not buying cigarette. That money went to scaling the teeth.
I need to be very thrifty with my spending. I cannot spend any money until November.
When I add the total digits in my ASB, it was a 27. That is as glaring as it is that I am a 7:7. I got a feeling that Juice is wrong about the whole thing. I am God!
I just have to accept that there are forces higher than us and I am part of this higher force,
What do I got to lose? As it is my number is coherent. At this point I can choose to be a nothing or to be a god, Might as well I'll be God. After all it doesn't bother anybody if I am God.
As a fact, by being a God, I move from something simple to something complex as if I am moving from no apple to full apple without much contradiction. By taking the position that is fuzzy, I have a wider range. I can be a Nothing and I can be an Everything. I think I just do that.
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After the afternoon walk, I realized how ridiculous these thoughts on god and no god. We simply don't have an answer. Therefore both answers are right.
If you ask my most sincere opinion, then I say I am God Almighty experiencing a human life. As a human being I am nothing but as God I own everything. It could be a matter of thought framing but I like to think that I am the God to Sparta 4964.
Another angle that I should refer to is I am nothing more than an animal highly evolved.
All these won't matter accept the 77, 27 and 7 pattern.
I just accept that I am special and proceed with the mental model.
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Damn... I am experiencing nicotine and sugar withdrawal. Feels shit.
Had a 2-day vacation in Kuala Terengganu. We had a fairly good time there. Mostly eating the local delights.
Tomorrow will start back the diet and exercise routine.
Now its the left foot hurting. I will still exercise tomorrow in the afternoon. Will continue the no starch no sugar diet.
My priority has now shifted to losing weight to get rid of the inflammation.
I think I had shaken off cigarette.
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Juice, what are you thinking? Why so quiet?
You also are lost for words huh?
Well honey, rest assure that I will stick with this journey. If health and happiness are my ultimate destinies, I will make sure I will lose the 30 kg.
The key here is NO SMOKING. As long as I don't smoke I am a winner. On the contrary no matter what I do, if I smoke I am an ultimate loser.
Not smoking is the building block. From there I can go weight reduction or daily exercise or personal grooming. What counts is no more smoking. The next step is no carbs and sugar.
These are my lifelong pursuits.
I am pretty happy with all the effort I put in each area.
After no smoking, [] is nothing more important than to abstain from carbs and sugar
Everything is just right. The daily consumption of supplements and the various oils certainly downplay the desire to smoke cigarettes and consume carbs.
I need to go back to 2014, when I totally stop carbs altogether.
Now I still consume:
Nicorette
Horlicks
Apple
Banana
Syrup flavor
Tomorrow and the day after we are going to Terengganu for a vacation. I start NO STARCH AND SUGAR by 11/9/18 (Maal Hijrah).
I need to lose 30 kg pretty bad:
I need to run 11 km hill every weekend.
I need to fight fatique
I need to get rid the uric acid and calcium deposit
I need to wear my old clothes
I need to wear my sport attires
I need to prepare for the half marathon
I need to prepare for the Emperor's Routine
These are my wins for 2018:
First Win - No more cigarettes
Second Win - No more starch and sugar
Third Win - Losing 30 kg
Fourth Win - Able to run for 10 km
As you can see, every month counts, every day matters.
The reward is THE WHITENING OF TEETH BY JANUARY 2019.
Note: Stay clear from those "friends" especially Ameezan. They are of no value. Save as much as possible to whiten teeth.
I have a cup of milk and standby a liter of plain water. I tried to sleep since 12:15 am. Not possible...
Maybe I chew Nicorette. What do you think Juice? I try to fight the sensation as long as I can.
I just chewed one.
My legs are still tingling with the feel of the uric acid and calcium deposit. Whichever one or both.
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In the solitude of the night or rather the wee hour of the morning I normally let my imagination flies. Tonight is like any of those nights. Even better, tonight is cool and particularly quiet. You would expect there are plenty to write about from a person who decided to make writing his vocation.
Unfortunately there is nothing much. I decided to withdraw from FB for another year or at least until the next Eid Fitr. I also decided to withdraw from Chedet.cc.
Let me concentrate on my 3 goals. I can do it on my own.
Next year there is no guarantee that Princess is getting her bonus. This year's financial performance was terrible. I have no intention of getting handouts from Munek anymore. So I'm gonna cut on my gray hair cream. It is RM100 per tube.
On the second thought I keep my current choice of things I buy. Provided I don't buy anything else. I am already at peace with who I am now.
Need to make sure I don't exceed RM150 a month. No money is despairing.
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As a whole I feel fine. As long as I don't smoke, I am a winner. The rest is a progressive realization towards a worthy ideal.
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So basically my job is to get well and quit smoking. Beyond that is a personal journey, a Vision Quest.
When things start to go on well is when I sabotage myself with smoking dope. Dope leads to cigarette and cigarette leads to me being fat.
It makes me feel better, but I suddenly craves for Nicorettes.
The decision i[n] to stay away from carbs and sugar at all cost.
So far cutting sugar since yesterday makes me sleepy for half a day today. I tried to perk things up by having the Horlicks in the afternoon. It helps, but I just violated my Sugar Detox.
In 3 months time, if I follow this basic routine, I will:
Lose at least 20 kg
Run 5 km on weekdays and 10 km on weekends
I will beat Ameezan and Rohaizad in being athletic
To do this, NO CARBS AND SUGAR. Stick with the plan.
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The calcium deposit still hurts. Got to exercise everyday but today not in the mood. I won't do it.
Had an apple. I was about to have a migraine.
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Dinner is Telur Penyet and Terung Penyet.
Well guess what? Turned out that after dinner is perfect for Mall Walk.
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Hey Juice? How come you are pretty quiet nowadays? Do you think I am progressing? I am on a different phase now. Previously the month of August is about no smoking. This September is about no nicotine and no refined carbs and sugar.
At present I am trying to fight both the withdrawal of nicotine and carbs. The unsmoking makes me tremble a bit but I can still manage the sensation.
Honey, I miss you. Feedback from you is very important, I have a sense of direction when you responded. Perhaps you are not active because I am already on the right track.
Anyway, the worst is over. I no longer have the urge to smoke. The battle continues to phase 2.
Bye Juice. I love you so much. Here is your lullaby for tonight.
Which means I sleep longer or I need to go to bed earlier.
This is not a smooth ride. I need to monitor the effect of low carbs on my energy level. I'll go with the flow for a while. Sort of go with the instinct for today.
I don't feel fatigue but I certainly want to lay back. Not really pushing it, I had violated the top 2 principles:
Show up
Work hard
Listen
Still can manage without eating carbs in the morning. I am not depress but I am not excited either. I am on even keel. The oils help much in my LCHF diet.
This is first week of Athlete Warrior and Sugar Detox. I expect to lose 10 kg this month.
Already I am losing some 1.7 kg. I expect the weight to constantly declining.
The feeling is exhilarating. I felt like smoking cigarette a while ago. For a fleeting moment after that I feel like smoking dope. It's not a strong urge, just a whiff. Not strong enough for me to go for the Nicorette gum.
I am still pretty sleepy and yawning a few times..
Very simple. Do not take sugar for the next 14 days. See if I can handle it.
My rule will be no sugar and starch. No Nicorette either.
This morning I only sweat for 30 minutes. I feel a bit exhausted since I changed to the Weighted Walk. So the 30 minutes adjustment is necessary.
Bowel movement was fantastic with Horlicks. Something to consider. Unfortunately Horlicks is high carbs.
I'll go along with this Sugar Detox and see how far it takes me.
I got really sleepy by 11:00 am. So I slept until 1:15 pm.
Lunch was at 1:30 am. I had Korean chicken wings and drumettes.
Again in the afternoon I knockout for a few hours.
Missed afternoon exercise due to rain as well as the sleep.
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Should I take Horlicks? I am already down by 1.7 kg since the past few days. I will persist. This is the first stage to no sugar living. I been wanting to live without sugar. I might as well commit to this cause.
I want to know how does it feels to no longer depends on sugar. If I can stop depending on cigarettes, I should ENJOY not to depend on sugar.
Things I will miss:
Cordial Syrup (can dilute a bit)
Horlicks (better stay away)
Bread with coconut jam and butter (better stay away)
Super Combo Nasi Lemak (avoid at all costs)
Cucur Udang (avoid at all costs)
Karipap Sardin (avoid at all costs)
Banana (fruit OK)
Apple (fruit OK)
3-in-1 Coffee (no more)
Pokka Coffee (no more)
The Sugar battle is fought on daily basis, Before the day end I need to ensure I don't consume any sugar.
Even water taste sweet with the absence of sugar.
I gain weight and I get inflammation with sugar. So I declare:
First enemy is cigarettes
Second enemy is carbs and sugar
Item 1 & 2 is nice to have, not necessary.
If I can avoid breakfast, I can avoid item 3, 4, 5 & 6.
Item 9 & 10 are poisons.
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First thing’s first: According to Dr. Smith, no one can technically “quit” sugar, since it’s the fuel our bodies run on and is present in lots of healthy foods, including fruits, vegetables, and whole grains. Instead, it’s about learning how to eat the sweet stuff in moderation, since even if you think your diet’s healthy, you’re probably getting more of it than you should.
“In week two, most people talk about residual cravings,” Dr. Smith explains. “They’re beyond the withdrawal symptoms, but they’re missing certain types of sugary substances.” (Hey, it can take a while to acclimate to fat bombs if you’re used to Chunky Monkey.)
To combat this, he says, make sure you’re eating plenty of protein, healthy fats, and fiber with each meal, which will help you feel fuller, longer.
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Yes, I started reading Relentless. I this this book is a keeper. I will definitely read it over and over again.
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As for the afternoon exercise, I managed to run for 20 minutes. I think I have the momentum to start running again. I only run for that long because I chose to stop. Legs still feel heavy. I carry a 30 kg luggage with me.
I need to loose weight fast. I'll do that within 3 months.
STARTING TONIGHT:
No carbs & sugar
LCHF diet
No more 3-in-coffee
Eat supplements and oil for lunch
Must exercise morning and afternoon
The key is to shred the fat ASAP. Then CONSISTENTLY RUN.
I tend to use the syrup for flavoring, Not much until I taste the sweetness.
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My aim is to lose 30 kg in 4 months. In order to have what you really want, you must first be who really are - Tim Grover.
I got to transform to the Athlete Warrior before I can be thin and fast.
I am no longer experiencing the mania. In a way this feeling of being normal is a bit bland. I am no longer inspired. I think it is the mood swing. Two days ago I was ready to conquer the world!
In a way, I think I am experiencing the down cycle. So ordinary. So no idea. Moments like this I have to keep on writing.
The key is to keep on moving. I need to sweat. Today I woke up at 9:30 am. So there goes the morning walk.
I had a distance tinge to smoke. I quickly took the gum and the desire disappeared.
I need the feeling of high. How do I get that? By diet and exercise. Today I'll eat the Telur Penyet without the extra chili. Then in the afternoon I walk/run.
I need to [t]o this every day. OK then, I vacuum the carpet.
Note: As I was about to vacuum, Big called. I'll do it at 3:00 pm.
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I ate Telur Penyet as planned. What I didn't plan was the most delicious Cappucino Coffee on offer for RM6:00 (normal price is RM9:00). I also had a Chocolate Puff for RM1:60. One of the few things you can still buy for that kind of money,
I breached my sugar pledge but boy were they worth my birthday treat.
Upon coming back I rested for 1 hour and then I vacuumed the carpet.
