I am 80% on track with my diet and I am 100% on track with my Couch to 10k.
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I had a conversation with Lizzie. She said her physics professors didn't believe in God. How can that be? She queried.
I said, what is the difference [] they believe or don't believe? What if a person believes and there is no God as compared to a person who don't believe and there is God?
I cannot tell the difference because I used to believe in a pantheistic non-intervening God. So to me there is no difference. Just like it makes no difference to me if there are whales o[f] none.
Note: Thus my affinity of god is BJ and myself. That is when I am stoned. Otherwise I am an atheist. I like to think that I am an agnostic atheist but because you insisted I drop the first part, I am pretty comfortable to just be an atheist as in I don't care about the God question anymore.
All I got to do is eliminate the 3 premises; the[] is God, there is an afterlife and there is judgement of heaven.
Instead I pursue health and happiness. My main goal is to prolong my life as long as possible and my religion is running.
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You seemed pretty sure that there is no God. I on the other hand is indifferent about the whole thing except when I am stone. So I think in my case the concept of God is a drug induced psychosis. As it is now I don't see the need to dwell in this thought.
Anyway, thanks for making me realized that I was a lost soul all this while. I had the realization in 2012 but I was sucked back in because of my encounter with Brenda. Imagine if I am stuck in that belief system that only I believe. You know, those think about Al Araf 7:7 and Sparta 4964 kind of belief. It was pretty messy thought starting 2016. Luckily it was a short stint.
You simplified my thought process. It is becoming so simple that for the past 1 month I have nothing to write. For a while I thought I will lose you.
Who would have figured that the culprit was cigarette. It caused the mania. All these while I thought only dope did that. Turned out cigarettes can get me into very serious distortion of judgement as well.
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Now that I know how serious dope and cigarettes affecting my belief system, I will stay away from both. That means I won't quit Nicorette an[d] time soon. Without dope I only take half a strip a day. The only set back is Nicorette increases insulin and makes me fat. I target Oct 15 to quit for good.
As it is Nicorette is a good alternative. Much like drinking coffee.
Hey hon, do you think I should continue Nicorette for let say 3 months? Maybe Oct 15 is too soon? I need to lose weight though.
I try Oct 15 and see how it goes.
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Babe, let's listen to some new songs. Heaven knows (I was thinking of writing God knows LOL) how much I miss you. I think the dope lifted my spirit a bit.
So here they are:
Yup, that should do it. My gift to you for 2018.
I got to sleep honey. Thanks for hanging out with me. I love you so much Juice.
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