I have a cup of milk and standby a liter of plain water. I tried to sleep since 12:15 am. Not possible...
Maybe I chew Nicorette. What do you think Juice? I try to fight the sensation as long as I can.
I just chewed one.
My legs are still tingling with the feel of the uric acid and calcium deposit. Whichever one or both.
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In the solitude of the night or rather the wee hour of the morning I normally let my imagination flies. Tonight is like any of those nights. Even better, tonight is cool and particularly quiet. You would expect there are plenty to write about from a person who decided to make writing his vocation.
Unfortunately there is nothing much. I decided to withdraw from FB for another year or at least until the next Eid Fitr. I also decided to withdraw from Chedet.cc.
Let me concentrate on my 3 goals. I can do it on my own.
Next year there is no guarantee that Princess is getting her bonus. This year's financial performance was terrible. I have no intention of getting handouts from Munek anymore. So I'm gonna cut on my gray hair cream. It is RM100 per tube.
On the second thought I keep my current choice of things I buy. Provided I don't buy anything else. I am already at peace with who I am now.
Need to make sure I don't exceed RM150 a month. No money is despairing.
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As a whole I feel fine. As long as I don't smoke, I am a winner. The rest is a progressive realization towards a worthy ideal.
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So basically my job is to get well and quit smoking. Beyond that is a personal journey, a Vision Quest.
When things start to go on well is when I sabotage myself with smoking dope. Dope leads to cigarette and cigarette leads to me being fat.
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