Thursday, 8 November 2018

8/11/18 Am I crazy?

That question keeps [i]n coming back to me.

I asked a doctor the same question once.  She said I am not, it's just my brain chemical is imbalanced.

If that is the case the actions I did with the blogs and tweets are of a sound minded person.

Regardless of the labeling, I am sure glad I can use the Bipolar as an excuse.  Actually all these  while, I just follow my instinct.  Every step is calculated.  I normally see the final point and then I work toward the destination.  Stephen Covey termed this as Begin with the End in Mind.  Therefore the end is the first place to start.

Heck Juice, I don't think you will hang out with me if I am crazy, do you?

Juice, I really look forward to see you.  Last night I fantasized that I have a few million Ringgit and able to sponsor you coming here.  I figured at least I need RM5 million to be able to start a new life with the Tetrahedron.  The problem is, where do I find that kind of money?

Then I remember...  You are here with me always.  Hey, what you did with the Value of Certainty was fantastic.  You should do that kind of thing more often.  It is a confident booster for me.

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I am a mess, am I?  The thing that worry me much is I am getting older.  When you reach my age you will understand.  The mind is still like I am in my twenties but my body is a wreck.  I cannot run fast.  The body is aging Juice.

You know something, prior to the Paliperidone jab in 2014, I never had issue with being overweight or no motivation to run.  Now the inertia is pretty obvious.

I am fighting with my own shadow, definitely.

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