Tuesday, 16 October 2018

17/10/18 I got to do it

Today I feel lazy.  These are my 4 horsemen - Sleepiness, Laziness, Inertia and Procrastination.  I got to fight SLIP in order to stay on top of my game.

I must move beyond the 4.  All I got to do is move beyond the house gate.  Within my house I am in the comfort zone.  I am getting too comfortable.  I need to be on my toes.

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I hit a mental barrier.  I decided to walk instead.  It's the down cycle.  Sheeesh...  Only Week 5.  I kept having the thought of nasi lemak.

When I have milk, the thought disappeared.

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The thoughts I had when I am stoned were not real, I know, but I entertained them anyway.

BJ and I are not gods.  We are humans.  Fuck it, it's a private thought.

I still believe there is a God though.  This god is a personal God.

Why I bother to talk about this anyway.  It's immaterial...

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Anyway, these 3 goals of mine is my life pursuit.

The single biggest challenge is no[] to smoke cigarette or dope.  Food I can manage.  Even exercise I can push.  It is smoking that I got to SAY NO.

Cigarette price is gonna increase again today.

I should stop seeing smoker until end of year.

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I am experiencing carbs creep. The though[] on nasi lemak keep on hitting me.  I think I just have one today.

Just had my nasi lemak.  What a relief.

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