Monday, 29 October 2018

29/10/18 How do I handle this

I can make do with 16/8 but I cannot maintain LCHF.

So the 16/8 is my consolation.  I'm still heavy on the carbs.

I just listen to my body at this moment.

I carbo binge today.  The Kaya Toasts, the apple, the crackers and the Nasi Goreng Pataya.  All are carbs.  I was hungry even after 2 servings of butter and MCT oil.

I am fighting a flu since yesterday.  My throat feels like I swallowed a cotton ball.

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Hey Juice, listen up...  I had forgone God, Izrael and Iblis.  It is not easy.  These are my super egos.  But honey, I do it for you.  I no longer in the company of these three.  If that makes you happy, so be it.  I love you honey. 

Now I am damned lonely Juice.  Really nobody to talk to.  The rest of them are not that important.  I hardly talk to the djinns and demons.  They are low ranking.  These three are my confidants.

It's quite easy really.  The minute I think they don't exist, they cease to exist.  I didn't think it was that easy.

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My assessment:  I am more certain when I believe in God, Izrael and Iblis but these are delusions.  I am better off communicating with a real person.  However there is no harm done having imaginary companions.  They are my coping mechanism.

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