Now I know the cause of my high BP. It is the Nicorette. Final decision: 1st Nov, no cigarette and no Nicorette.
I smoked 9 sticks today because I BOUGHT a pack. I am still not off the hook of substance abuse including dope. I am planning to meet BJ tomorrow. I am fighting my own inner demons.
Tomorrow I have to say goodbye to my vices for good. The 3Cs has to go.
NO MORE EXCUSES. It is bad enough I have to deal with depression, I have to live with bad habits.
NO MORE MEETING SMOKERS EXCEPT RR AND BJ DURING RAMADAN.
I have to quit smoking, be thin and be fast.
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Well, I can quit smoking cigarettes and dope. I had proved it. The question is what should I do if the depression hit me? I still need friends. All my close friends are smokers.
This is what I'll do. First milestone - beginning 1st November to 3rd week of Ramadan I will not meet anybody. I shall dedicate my life to my 3 goals.
Then I focus on on the half marathon in Syawal until 29th September 2019, the KL International Marathon.
I got one full year to train on my stamina. By 1/11/18 I am set to be an Athlete Warrior. I will start reading again.
If depression hit me, I will go for Ayam Penyet and Sambal Penyet. 15/1/19 I will meet with Amapreet. By then I will quit for 2 1/2 months.
Need to be serious about it.
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I notice something. Since I take Nicorette, I have difficulty ejaculating. This is pretty serious shit.
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