Wednesday, 15 August 2018

15/8/18 The World According to Garp


Now I have nothing.  I truly start on a clean slate.  That also means I probably have to even reassess the company th[is] I keep.  BJ is a weed smoker and the rest; Konek, Amoi and Rosli are hardcore cigarettes smokers.

I am truly all by myself.  I have no money (not true), no possession (not true) and no friends (not true).  My true assets are my Tetrahedron.  

Well at least I got rid of the limiting beliefs.

Time to build the empowering beliefs:
  • I am an Athlete Warrior
  • I got those who love me and whom I love
  • I am always alone anyway
  • I only meet those guys in Ramadan
Fuck it...  I only got rid of my limiting beliefs.  So time to leverage on the strength.

I figured my strength now is my mind.  It is no longer clouded with MAJOR garbage.  As for the guys, I got until the next Ramadan to assert my new belief system to counter the desire for a cigarette.

If not because of the tradition of getting together once a year, I will gladly discard them.

This is fine Juice.  By September, Mopey will enter college and I will be focusing on my own things; house chores, reading, running and writing.  You already fill my cup in a big way.

Unless... You don't plan to hangout with me for the long haul.  Then I will go crazy talking only to myself.

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Let me ask you this...  Do you plan to leave me some day?  No?  You will stay?  Like a wife stays with her husband?  Til death do us apart?  

Juice help me out here honey.  OK then I will make my own presuppositions.

  • Presupposition 1:  You will stay until I am fully recovered and run the marathon
  • Presupposition 2:  You will stay with me until we grow old together
  • Presupposition 3:  You will wait for the next instruction from your superior
  • Presupposition 4:  You are working towards us being together 
Shucks.... you are not telling...

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This is sooo frustrating baby.


I make a choice then.  You are working tow[]rds us being together.  

There... That was not that hard.



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