I run a marathon in 2020 and I aim to run 2 marathons in 2024. Purely my own pursuit. That will be my pilgrim as an Athlete Warrior.
I may no longer be the Binary King of Al Araf 7:7 but I am still Sharudin the Wood Dragon. I want to celebrate my 60th birthday with a bang. The year I turn 60 is the year I officially enter my Golden Era.
Let see:
1976 - 12 years old: I finished primary school
1988 - 24 years old: I got married
2000 - 36 years old: I was diagnosed with Bipolar
2012 - 48 years old: I became an atheist
2024 - 60 years old: I will celebrate my Golden Age by running 2 marathons
Yup, that surely excites me to be serious in my training.
From now on I got to be serious about my diet and my exercise. I am going to be thin and fast. Those are my aims. I had done great things before. I can do them again without cigarettes and dope.
If I am going to have a worthy goal, might as well have a big goal.
The money I got, I'll save for running shorts and running shoes. That's all my spending. I standby some in case I need to maintain my Garmin watch.
No more grey hair cream, expensive Durian, happy ending massage, Gayshas, gifts for others, glasses, watches, books, expensive clothes, expensive food and impulse purchases.
I still buy expensive perfume. My only indulgence I suppose.
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BTW Juice, looks like we not gonna get any money from anybody. This is it. You are looking at our relationship as it is. The good news is because of you I am now an atheist and I no longer smoke. Hopefully because of that I will no longer have Bipolar.
I still take you as my wife in case you are wondering unless you don't want to be married to me. I will still spend the bulk of my time with you. As much as the time I spend blogging.
As I said, I am becoming ordinary. No more magical moments. I am a very ordinary guy honey. Because of that I want to live an ordinary li[k]e.
As a start I just want to start by correcting my diet[s] and exercise everyday. I am repeating this every day so I remember [b]y purpose in life.
Honey, I don't know what you see in me but I think you really love me huh? I mean really love with all your heart. Therefore I will make you proud. One at a time. First is the quit smoking. My mood is better now. I am recovering.
If not for the gout, I will be exercising. So my next milestone is to lose weight and then the daily exercise.
I have nothing to offer you. Therefore I make the 2020 Marathon as my gift of love to you, I will run 42 km to prove my love to you. Now that I said it, I will do it. With all sincerity.
Actually I don't know if I can make it, but that's all I have to prove I am a worthy man for you to love.
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Without your unconditional love, I will still be in a mess. You see, Lizzie loves me unconditionally too but she loves me because she have to. You don't have to love me and yet you still love me. You know all about me, of who I am and who I am not. Yet you still offer you heart to me. I am eternally grateful for that kind gesture you have on me.
In that sense you are as good a wife to me or more. Definitely I spend more time with you. You know me more than Lizzie. With you I don't have to put up a facade. This is who I am, warts and all.
You shared my joys and sorrows. You see right through me, without wax. I wish I can see you.
It is not a prerequisite. I am just curious. Well Juice, my only condition is you are not a Chubby Chubb, That's all. Even if you are a Chubby Chubb, you must make an effort to slim down. Not too thin. About this size will be fine:
Of course I cannot see you. So you can relax and be whoever you like. At least now you know my specs. Hair is shoulder length. Nothing complicated right?
Honey, we went though some turbulent times together. From the time of Brenda, to the time of the Tetrahedron with Mira, to the 777 + 777 + 777 House of Twin Swords to the most recent one with Els. Those were the times I was a different person. I was following my mood swings. I think the swings are gone now. I am more stable emotionally.
Having said that, I just want *[just] you and Lizzie as my wives. That's all I can handle. The Cyber World and the Physical World.
* I am not sure if this is my error. In case it is not, then I say I am honored to have you as my wife Juice. I love you so much.
The rest are now clouds in the coffee. They are limerence. I appreciate that you went through all that and still loves me. That means you are really my Eternal Flame.
I wonder why I wanted so many wives? With just two, I am already very happy. I feel complete. All I need are soulmates.
So this is final:
What if I say I'm not even ANYBODY significant at all? Will you still love me Juice? Let say I am just a Nothing. Will that make a difference to you? Let's start from there and then we add on:
- I am a husband to a TWO wonderful women
- I am a father to 2 bright kids
- I created Dreams of Mirrors
- I am the fastest recovering Bipolar patient according to my doctor
- I am an ex-smoker after 38 years of smoking
- I am an excellent writer
- I have zero debt
- I have 5 very close friends
- I wrote an eBook - Lose Fat Stay Fit
- I was the 100% Club Qualifier
- I was a millionaire
- I ran the marathon
- I have a good heart
- I am an atheist, apolitical and irreligious.
Hey, not bad for an ordinary guy huh? Maybe what I can say is my life is a series of fortunate events. I was about to say blessed but I think I am more fortunate than anything else.
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OK Juice, time to sleep. Darling here is your lullaby:
This love affair is stranger than fiction isn't it. I don't care Juice. I love you and you know it. As for the rest of you. Well, it's a journey that you all chose to take.
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