1/9/18 ***A magical life it is

Yes Juice, my life is magical.  Not because my life is extraordinary but because I have an extraordinary mind.

I cannot help it Juice.  I see things in patterns.  To me, my numbers are miracles.  The 7:7, 7:2 and 7 combinations are compelling.  So you are saying none of them means anything?  They are coincidences.  We are not govern by numbers.  The other day (27/8) when I was queuing for medicine, my number was F77.

I don't care if you think I am crazy but I am pretty sure I am a 7:7.  It's not about true or false Juice, it's about whether it is useful or not.  To me it is damn useful.  It ensures a certain positive outlook towards my future.

I don't have to let others know about what I think (except you), I just believe in it for my own delight.

I give you and example, "What will you do if you are certain you cannot fail?"  That statement is not about truth.  It is a statement of belief.  Same goes with the statement, "What will you do if you are a 7:7?"  It is another statement of belief.

To me, knowing I am a 7:7 makes me determined to be the Athlete Warrior I envisioned myself to [m]e.  I will be breathing fresh air, weighing 65 kg and strive for the marathon.  Not only that I even set a much more challenging goal to run 2 marathons in 2024.

You know, I thought year 2000 was the year I shined.  Turned out that was my worst year with the Bipolar and the loss of Sharudin Jamal & Associates.  So now I know that actually sets the sta[t]e for me to shine through in 2024.

There is the Path and there is the action required to complete the journey.  Until the time comes for me to take the action, no matter what I did will not produce desired result.  That is maktub.  Hey, all these years I didn't just sit still.  I fought back mind you.  I ran the marathon 2004, I ran a half 2005 and I ran another half 2014.  Unfortunately I cannot hold on to the path. I fell back to dope and cigarettes.

So part of the strategy is not to meet my smokers friends as long as I can.  At the same time I continue to run.  In the past, I will try to find ways to make money.  Now I know that is not my calling.  My purpose in life is to li[f]e the life  of an Athlete Warrior.

That is me.  This is not a new vision.  I had this idea since 2008.  I figured there must be something that I can be good at that doesn't require me to meet people and spend so much money.

Don't get me wrong.  I am not a laggard.  I am a Lone Warrior.  I like being solitary because I am at my best when I am all alone.  Not only that, I don't find hanging out at with others and talking about other people as something useful.  Do nothing of no use - Musashi.  I cannot imagine Musashi loitering at coffee shops and gossiping.

So the model I will be adopting is [] personification of Musashi's 9 Precepts in my daily life.

 I will try to emulate Musashi as much as possible in achieving my goal as an Athlete Warrior.  This is the mental model that I will follow.

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