Since I quit smoking 3 weeks ago, I lost my most intimate sense of pleasure, the cigarette. The gum doesn't give the same feel. I am still fighting the addiction. It's gonna be a roller coaster ride for the next 3 months.
@traxxfmofficial Hi there Sound Journey Saturday. I am 3 weeks quit smoking. Still feels terrible. Hope you can cheer me up. #traxxfm
The cereal boosted my mood somewhat.
I tell you what Juice, lets spin our own dozen:
I feel much better already. The oldies are much better. They uplift my mood.
I don't feel like finishing the playlist. Not in the mood, I feel like talking. Nothing in particular. My mind is on cigarettes. After 3 weeks I am still thinking about cigarettes. This is really serious. I gotta fight it.
Hey, I remember a nice song:
I don't know what to do. What is there to talk? I am becoming a bore. As I write I remember more songs:
What do you think Juice, will I get over cigarettes and live a happy life? I feel so terrible now. 2018 I got to quit smoking no matter what. I want to start fresh. Free from smoking and free from Bipolar. This is the year.
No even the songs can create the magical effect. I'm really screwed. What is becoming of me Juice? My only salvation is the run.
I tell you what, I'll stop taking the gum even. I take the plunge. The gum contains artificial sweetener which will increase insulin.
The reality is quit smoking made me normal. I never been normal for 38 years. I got to deal with this new reality. Secondly I am still on paliperidone jab. My dopamine is low. All these while I use nicotine to compensate my lack of dopamine.
Now I got to regulate my dopamine with exercise.
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