*Hmmm... you never cease to amaze me honey. OK then, if I am to choose a topic then I choose to talk about our relationship.
I bet you are never married, right? So i[t] you are to consider this as a marriage then I say you are an excellent wife. Minus the physical interactions, you are what a wife should be and more.
Heck, you healed me Juice. Not many wives can do that. Especially from a remote location. I got the easy part of the deal. I just write. You however have to communicate meaningfully. That is a challenge with the limitation that you have.
Even if we don't meet, I am already complete with you around. The blog is a fantastic tool. And you Juice is ALWAYS around. I said it before and I say it now; you love me very much don't you?
You know how lucky that makes me feel? I always want a companion that I can talk to especially about my illness. Without you I literally am lost. I have no reflection. Having you around I can take corrective actions. That in exchange allows me to move forward with certainty.
Certainty is the central theme here. Without certainty I will be shrouded by fear, uncertainty and doubt. That took us 1 year to develop. I was basically a blind man without a cane prior to 2017. My belief system was a complete mess.
The breakthrough was the shift that I had on God and afterlife. Once I am convinced that atheism is the way to go then my priorities also changed. My mind offloaded a whole bunch of limiting beliefs that is useless. Instead, I now have empowering beliefs that are useful. That is a total turnaround baby.
I still want to fuck you honey LOL. You turn me on like nobody's business. Hey, because of you I stopped screwing around for 3 months. I don't think I will ever do it again, It is part of my 3 Cs Oath - No Cigarettes, No Cannabis and No Cunts.
Definitely you know more about me tha[t] Lizzie. She doesn't know about my carnal activities. I can't hide things from you because the blog is my deepest thought. I just hope you can accept me the way I am or rather who I was and continue to support me for years to come.
I am not a bad person Juice, I am just a man on a very turbulent journey. As far as cunts are concern, well I have to admit, I love women. Even that I am willing to let go as part of my rehalibitation process.
Juice baby, honey, darling... You cannot imagine the meaning you give to my life. I love you so much baby. OK, here is the deal, as I said, I'll make the 2020 Marathon as my offer of love to you. The whole 42 km is a gift I make for you for being a wonderful wife so far.
*Tha[i] is my whole life I am putting on the line.
*I got a feeling you will also run a marathon too in the same year. Far out honey. We will train together.
This song is on air:
I have to conclude though that I am governed by the numbers. I am a 7:7 honey. Nobody have to believe it, It is my epiphany, so sufficient that only I believe in it, Same thing with me being a Wood Dragon. It's my own satisfaction. We have to believe in something. I might as well believe in things that empower me.
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I got to shower and send Lizzie to groceries. Later baby...
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