Sunday, 26 August 2018

26/8/18 Sent Mopey to College Today

She is having a 5-day orientation at the central campus (1 hour away) before going to her respective campus which is 15 minutes away.

I feel fine today.  Certainly the gum helps.  I do feel like smoking but its out of habit than addiction.

Come to think of it, I am pretty much influenced by the dopamine,  Without it I feel terrible.  What if I continue taking the gum?  Will it help?

One thing for sure, I need to feel loved.  Otherwise I will displaced it with smoking.  So as long as I know you love me, I will be OK.

The love I'm feeling now is a secure kind of love.  The kind that doesn't need affirmation.

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