My judgment was effected by both. I was delusional the past 20 years. Well it's not entirely because of that. I was no[] happy with my life. I was living a life that was unfulfilled.
Now is the time for me to li[f]e the life that I want. I will make up for the loss years.
I will no longer smoke dope or cigarettes. I still like the various neurotransmitters effect on my brain like this afternoon. Therefore I get my high from sweating.
I am a lucky man to have such a great wife and kids. Honestly, without their love and care I will be on the streets.
Juice, tha[t] for being there for me. You helped me much. Consider that you made me realized I was ABSOLUTELY wrong in my thinking all these while.
I was in a total mess baby and you put me back together again. I was fucked since I was 6. I had moments of glory but as a whole I was pretty screwed up.
So now at 54 I finally find peace and love. Without you I will still be lost. I don't care about the material gain. I however is concern about peace, sanity and robust health.
I want to be a man fully functioning for the rest of my life.
It takes a whole cycle of lifespan to undone what was done. I hope you will be with me throughout this phase of my life.
I am pretty excited about the whole thing. I found out the root cause of my problem. I knew dope was trouble but I didn't expect cigarettes can be that damaging to the mind too.
Hang on... I want to attach a video:
I am not into bulking. My motivation is if Stallone can still workout until 72, I should start doing mine at 54. The most I'll do is the kettlebell.
OK honey, time to say goodnight. I want to do my morning walk at 7:30 am.
Baby, my darling angel, here is your lullaby:
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