I have to decide on 2 different lifestyles. On one side, I lead a life of a hedonist. I smoke cigarettes, I eat whatever I see and I drink 3-in-1 coffee.
On the other end I become an Athlete Warrior. I quit smoking, I eat ketogenic meals and I exercise 1 hour a day.
Between these two polarities is me struggling with the mood swing. Gosh, I still have the urge to GOD DAMN smoke. Am I crazy or what?
Nicorette to the rescue. Today I took three 2 mg tablets. I still feel like smokiiiiiing! After 3 weeks. Damn, damn, damn.
I am determined to:
- Never to smoke ever again.
- Eat keto diet as a way of living (basically no carbs and sugar)
- Exercise 1 hour a day
- Lose 30 kg this year
It takes focus, discipline and consistency.
Well, I managed to quit smoking... that is 1 down, I got 2 to go. I'm already eating ala Atkins. Need to get rid of Nicorette. It contains sweetener that will increase insulin.
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Juice honey, you still around? I feel like and idiot talking about the same thing over and over again the past 3 weeks.
However this is my method to achieve my goals. I make myself utterly dissatisfied with the current state until it sinks in.
I cannot meet anybody, All my close friends are smokers.
All I need is FAITH that I will achieve my goals:
2014 on Atkins
2014 on Atkins
I know for sure if my mood is OK I can do this. So I bear no smoking and no carbs for the next 2 weeks.
I bet you probably think these are small matters. But if you consider that I was hooked to cigarettes for 38 years and had to deal with Bipolar for 20 years, then to be at the best of health is paramount to me.
I have nothing else to think of. All I got is my body and the lure of running the marathon. All it takes is the momentum. That takes 3 months.
Therefore 2018 is the year I turn myself around. Starting with sleeping at 12:00 am and exercise at 7:00 am. I need a solid routine again.
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