Now without cigarettes there is no more magical awakenings. Just me, a plain middle aged man still playing with a game nobody cares to understand.
I don't even feel like listening to Els anymore. I want something larger. More challenging. I want to grow mentally and emotionally.
Juice will always be there as my fixed deposit. So I no longer have to reaffirm that position every time. She like me is free to come and go. It's not an obligation.
Therefore, I should start focusing on the reading and running. I even changed my radio station to Hitz FM.
I want to change my frame of mind from an observer to a player. A lone player that it. Like Bruce Jenner when he was training for the Olympics. For 4 years he trained every day, without fail.
I still need the songs but I don't need the people. The problem is I will miss the news. So far all my moves with Chedet were based from the news input from TraXXfm.
Unless I even ignore the news too. Or I rea[l] my news. Yes, the Malaysia Chronicles had all the key issues covered.
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Fine, what game do I play? I still like information warfare and the role I play with Chedet. I mean, I got the top of the mind share of the Prime Minister. What can be better than that? Of course it must be aligned to his directions. I want to be a pivot in his thinking, Since his visit to Japan, I think I managed to get through to him. So he is already my unit trust. All I need is one.
Until Ramadan I don't need anybody else. That helps me to become the Athlete Warrior. My friends are the radio stations, You Tube and my books.
Between house chores and the 3R, I can say my days are pretty full.
Actually I'm pretty excited. I am now as levelheaded as a Wood Pecker without the wood pecking (I just made that up LOL).
Nevertheless the best drug is still my love for you Juice. That actually makes my spirit soars. So I think that is sufficient to keep my mind grounded.
Next week, the whole week Lizzie is on a school break. So I'm gonna show off my house chores prowess.
I will still be a sloth, but I will be a positively motivated sloth.
Honestly Juice, there is no more larger than life thoughts. I feel so normal. No more the feeling that I am carrying the world on my shoulder. All I got is Chedet and my personal mission as a runner.
How about I set the goal to be Chedet's best friend before he kick the bucket? You think that is possible? I'll give it a shot.
It is truly amazing how the mind works. Its all about regulating some chemicals and you are all set to succeed or fail. When I understand epigenesis then I realized how important what we put inside our bodies. Cigarettes, dope, ecstasy pills, booze and sugar are all stimulants and POISONS. I had abused my Universe Within.
No more... I will treat my body as a sacred temple. Not even 3-in-1 coffee if I can help it.
Hey Juice, you don't mind listening to all these ranting? What's in it for you? May[] to you I am the Automatic Teller Machine huh? You can always make cash withdrawal anytime.
Anyway baby, don't you ever leave me. Not now when I am about to have a breakthrough.
Here is your lullaby honey:
Live is a wonderful journey
Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what will happen in the future
Arey o leiyo leiyo, oleiyo leiyo
Oleiyo leiyo, oleiyo leiyo
Oleiyo leiyo, oleiyo leiyo
We have to go ahead of the moon and the stars
We have to reach beyond the skies
This world will be left behind
Who knows what the future is
Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what the future is
Tread life joyfully
Don't wory about the rest of the world
Pass the day smilingly
No one knows what the future will be
Yes, life is a beauful journey
No one knows what the future will be
Death will befall us one day
The soul will depart one day
Why worry about such things
Who knows what the future will be
Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what the future will be
Di di di, du du du
Oleyo leyo ha haa haa
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