Finally, I woke up feeling great and don't have the urge to smoke or chew gum. Frankly speaking, the feeling of chewing the gum is pretty lousy. So if I cannot smoke I might as well not have any form of nicotine whatsoever.
The first thing that came to mind is I surely have a good heart. That I can pledge and take to the bank. The question I have to consider is whether that is good or bad?
Based on my most recent encounters, IT IS BAD. Being good is bad and being bad is good, I need to be accepted and liked. If I am an asshole, I can manage without being nice to anybody.
So from now on I just be nice to the few that love me and that I love. I just remain impartial to everybody else. Just like Ameezan. He is only nice to his immediate family. As a person he is a jerk but, he is more successful than me. I don't want to be an asshole like him. I just think I should no[] be nice to everybody.
The most important thing is on matters pertaining to spending money. I have to conclude, the little money I have is for me to spend on myself.
Like for example I am in need for a tennis shorts pretty badly. I also need a watch strap. So that's all I'm going to spend my money on. I was thinking of buying Princess her badminton racket hand wrap. Forget it. Also I will not be buying anything for Mopey on her birthday.
Instead I'll be nice by being pleasant. I did that with Mopey. She turned out to be more mothering than Lizzie. I need to restrategize my approach with Mopey. I don't talk much to her. Like I said, I am a listener, not a talker.
So that's my take for today. All these while I was being too nice.
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