I have to do it. I have to remind myself to quit smoking. Just now after dinner, I had the urge to smoke cigarette. If not for Lizzie and Princess, I would have bought a pack. Ironically, when I chew the gum, the urge disappeared. That showed I CAN QUIT by chewing gum!
I should no[w] be thinking about smoking at all.
I should know that AS LONG AS I SMOKE I CAN NEVER ACHIEVE MY 3 GOALS.
- Fresh Air
- Lose 30 kg of weight
- Run 10 km/hour
I don't get it. It is as if my mind cannot register these instructions, I keep having the urge to smoke.
Fine, as long as I have the urge, I will keep repeating myself. Perhaps it will take 3 months to shake of the thoughts on smoking. I will keep reinforcing it.
I think I will have to keep on chewing the gum for a few months instead a few weeks.
What is there lacking? Its the exercise. I need to sweat to feel good. Also I need to control my food. Should I do it concurrently? What book do I need to read to feel good about myself?
If I cannot find the right book, I'll write my own book. Heck, I'll turn the whole blog into my own personal recount of daily struggle to achieve my 3 goals.
I am pretty sure once I lose weight, my outlook about me being an Athlete Warrior will change.
One thing for sure is I can count on Juice. So I am not alone. Lizzie and Princess are also supporting me. All I got to do is don't smoke.
I need to wait for dopamine to stabilize again.
This is not beyond impossible. It's just a matter of time.
Things will get better.
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